When I first created this blog, I did it because I wanted my writing to move people. To connect with people on an emotional level. I wanted to write differently than I did on my last blog that I had for 5 years. I wanted my posts to be more than just me venting about work, or theorizing about guys, or even just sharing my travels. I wanted to inspire young women, or anybody really, to dare to live a fearlessly authentic life.
What I’ve discovered, however, is that after just 3 posts I have already sunk into the same pattern that I did with my previous writing, and in turn have defeated my entire purpose for starting this blog. Let me explain. Keep on reading!
I feel everything. A bundle of nerves sensitive to the touch, the exposed vulnearablity feeling raw in the open air. I don’t even know what to call the emotions I feel aside from frustration and desire and false hopes and shame. I just know that I feel too much yet not enough but what I feel is wrong and I would be strong and move on, but I can’t. Keep on reading!
I’m a runner. Not in the five mile/endurance/cardio thing, gosh no. I run from things. I run when I get scared, when I think I’m going to fail, or even in the times where I need to step up and be an adult. I run.
I wasn’t always like that, or so I like to think so. People say that living with someone and/or being in a relationship makes you really get to know yourself and grow as a person. For me it was the opposite. Keep on reading!
Authenticity- to be your “true self.” Our culture loves to put emphasis on self. “Do things that make YOU happy. Never compromise anything for YOUR dreams.” Society tell us to “be yourself.” Yet society doesn’t know what makes each person him or herself. Our identity, our entire being, is created and sustained by God. Scripture says we are made in His image, so authenticity can really only ever be met in those moments when our flesh reflects Jesus’ love, wisdom, and goodness. We are never our “true selves” until Jesus’ character is reproduced in us- meaning we NEED the Holy Spirit to ever be authentic. Ironic how the only way to find yourself is to completely lose it, and be filled with our beautiful Maker.
I think instead of asking ourselves, “How can I be more authentic,” we can ask ourselves, “Who is God calling me to be? Who is God calling me to serve? How can my gifts be used for HIs glory?” These questions will better lead us to live the authentic lifestyle. Authenticity is valued because it is real, honest, and true. But the fact is that we humans can never achieve this on our own. Romans 3 says, “None is righteous,” “no one understands,” “no one seeks God,” and “no one does good.” See, our flesh works against authenticity. We only seek to benefit ourselves when we are apart from God- even the “good” things we do are wasted if not done for the kingdom. Our love, our works, our service, our friendship…all is only made righteous by our faith. We are stamped with authenticity when we stop doing things for “OURSELVES” and start pursuing, mirroring, and loving like Jesus.
Authenticity breeds accountability. When you confess and open up to the godly people in your life, and even to Jesus, you’ve now invited people to come fight with you. People who are going to stand by your side and march with you all the way from the battlefield to the victory party afterwards. Encouragement, vulnerability, tough love, and just plain honest truth enters your life when you have the courage to be authentic.
“I believe that with vulnerability comes strength.”